This is who I am…take it or leave it!

I have been questioning my writing style lately, which is really just my opinion but it is also more often than not what’s going on in my life. Not all writers express their true life through their written word, it depends on what type of writing you do. Musicians write lyrics that we can all relate to at some point in our lives, romance novelists take us away from our day to day to live in bliss for a moment suspended in time, bloggers write about what interests them and the list goes on.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and if you look at most of my posts, they reflect just that. Sometimes you may have to read between the lines, I certainly wouldn’t throw anyone under the bus but lately I’ve been seriously considering changing how open I have become. Too late? Better late than never? hmmmm. My quandary!

I’ve been on my own for awhile now, and have considered my writing therapeutic in the process. I have always had plenty of time between relationships in my past and believe its necessary to redefine who you have become before you put yourself back out there. I have recognized some profound changes in who I am and what I think of myself. That alone I think has been worth it!

When you meet someone who you find intriguing, you naturally want to savour the process and take things slow in getting to know each other. Unless of course it’s just about sex, then who really cares about their opinion on…anything! (I’ve not met that guy yet! lol) You don’t just want to put everything out there in one big pile. That is one of the best parts of meeting someone, letting a little bit out each time you’re together. The anticipation of making you wait elevates the excitement!

When I meet someone new the conversation eventually leads to “What do you do?” I suppose I could leave out the blogger part and just divulge that I am a ‘Silpada Rep’ but more often than not without even thinking Tara Cronica rolls off my tongue and I can’t get it back. Too much information is not always a good thing when you want to date someone.

When I started the whole writing process I decided to be an open book with my life, I had nothing to lose. It felt right. Say it out loud and hope for the best! That all seemed fine and dandy when I didn’t care what anyone in particular thought of me, not that I reeeeeally care now but 10% of me kinda does.

Tara Cronica has been my therapeutic outlet, like running but with words. I write, or run, chew on the words or thoughts for a while to be sure their mine, and I usually come up with a solution to my quandary! My solution this time…continue being true to myself, use my authentic voice to share my opinions and thoughts about life and love, don’t create circumstances that go against myself and be open to change.

Bonnie’s Svaha Spirit Series The Power of Vulnerability was the icing on the cake for making me decide to continue down the path I started on…

I will continue to let myself be seen, love with my whole heart, practise gratitude and joy and know without a doubt that I am enough! This is who I am, take it or leave it! πŸ™‚

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16 thoughts on “This is who I am…take it or leave it!

  1. I don’t think you would be “Our Tracy” if you changed. We love you just the way you are. A good person, a fantastic Mom and a good friend to many people as well as a thoughtful daughter. Keep writing and tackle every challenge that comes your way. xo

  2. Reveal most but conceal some.
    You can still write secrets and keep them for yourself, for therapy if you like. Just don’t publish them. You clarify yourself when you write down your thoughts. You are a prolific writer now, with a lot of value to say to others. Keep that up, of course. But being true to yourself doesn’t mean telling us everything. Don’t feel that sometimes you can’t just write behind a private door. Things you might save in a drawer for your memoirs. Or just memories of then.

    • Yes, I think you are so right, being true to self is so important but doesn’t mean your whole true self needs to be revealed to the world, some has to be saved for that special someone and family! It may not always appear as though I keep things to myself but I do.

      I may have Elastic Boundaries but they can only stretch so far! πŸ™‚

      I have a bag full of letters for my memoirs, but just to be clear, if something happens to me…Bonnie you know where they are and first things first, take them and put them in a safe place! lol They are NOT to be published! πŸ™‚

      Thanks for your words they mean a lot as always! xo

  3. You know that at the beginning of Tara Cronica I wasn’t always comfortable with your topics ( Can you say Bejewelled Brazilians, anyone?) but I’ve learned to loosen up and just enjoy each of our points of view and post choices as they come. I’d be sorely disappointed if you chose to hold back your real self now. I say ‘go for it’. We’ll always second guess our decisions in life but if you come from a place of honesty and integrity then you’ll always come out ahead.
    Three Cheers for our own Miss Elastic Boundaries! Hip Hip Hooray, Hip Hi…..yah, you get the idea…

    • We’ve come a long way baby! And we’ve just begun!

      I think we are a great balance the three of us! I have learned so much from both of you, you help keep me true! I have stopped writing for shock value and now write from a place that rings true to me…which can still have an edge but it’s not for the wrong reasons! (smile)
      Love love love you! xo

  4. I am learning to appreciate just how liberating honesty can be. I don’t think I am ready for the world to see me in my nakedness of spirit, that is reserved for self and that special someone, but to be true to self makes life so much sweeter.

  5. nobody minds if I am honest about anything and everything I say…..well usually…..but if I mention I did 9 years in CDC for molesting my daughter they want to just evaporate from reality. Some subjects are too much info for a first or third meetings…..honesty can be enlightening and liberating but it can be a destroyer too. Hope you got something from this dichotomy. Choose wisely.

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