Past-Present-Future = Now!

When will we learn to let go of our past? Now is so much more important. Why is history so important to some of us? Does it keep us in our comfort zone? I think so. Years ago a relationship I thought I’d let go of kept seeping back into my life. Just as I would forget and move on it would reappear somehow. Was it the hopeless romantic in me wanting my fairy tale ending? Was it the Universe testing me? Unresolved romance? It can be hard to let go of what was then and concentrate on what is now. Does anyone else relate to this? We can sometimes live in what was. The key is not to get ‘stuck’ in our past especially if it wasn’t a healthy one! Fortunately mine was.

No matter how good you recall a relationship was you moved on or they did for a reason…right? Or was the timing just not quite right? Do we only remember the good? Is that so bad?

I’ve learned first hand that when you focus on the past you stay in the past preventing you from seeing what’s right in front of you. When you bring the past into the present is that living in the Now? Technically maybe and that’s fine if your past was good. If you bring negative energy into the now your just recreating more negative energy.

When you look back do you feel any regret? Do we like to revisit our past from time to time to ensure we have moved on without any regret or do we slip back into what was? I have small regret but nothing on a grand scale that makes me cringe thankfully. Maybe that’s why I like to float back in time.

I love my past and maybe that’s why I have a hard time letting it go at times. I think past, present and future are all good. I think we all like to revisit our past from time to time. It can be a healthy part of our life. I certainly wouldn’t want to be stuck in my past. Being able to balance our past with the present is ideal. Holding onto elements of where we came from helps keep us grounded. Looking back on where we were tells a lot about who we are.

Life is about learning. We need life experience to have growth and unfold as human beings. As long as we move forward in life I think it’s all good. Sometimes I think it’s beneficial to step back in time if for no other reason than as a reminder of how far we’ve come. Our past is what makes us who we are in our present. Any way you look at the past-present-future they = Now. And there is no better place on earth than right here, right now ~

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Psychic Reading…

To Believe or Not to Believe is the question for many when it comes to clairvoyance. People in general are sceptical. Is it really possible a stranger could tell you about your past, present or future? I think most of us worry that we will hear bad news. Psychic readings are all about interpreting the cards and intuition. The mind is a powerful tool that we don’t fully understand. I trust my own intuition and instinct which have been right many times in my life. I think that whatever a psychic does tell you, you’re still left with the choice to change your path, so the outcome is up to the individual.

Edgar Casey and clairvoyance has intrigued me as far back as high school. I don’t consider myself a religious person but live my life spiritually. I love that our past is what makes us who we are, our present can be changed if we want to, and our future is always up for grabs. Our destiny is not written in stone, it can be altered if we are aware.

I have been drawn to psychics since I was in my twenties, and have had readings that would blow your mind, but not all clairvoyants should be treated equal. When one does hit a few nails smack on the head it can be pretty interesting. When a complete stranger tells you things that only you know, psychic ability has to be considered as a ‘possibility’.

Patricia read my Tarot Cards and touched on more than few elements of my life that I could not deny have been on my mind lately. Even if she found out my last name and Googled me, there were things she said she couldn’t have known unless she was part of my life, or she was a really good guesser! Patricia didn’t want me to give her information throughout my reading, she said less information gave her a clearer picture and didn’t influence her.

Patricia nailed my personality, she actually said I live in fluff and clouds with candy floss surrounding me, now that’s funny! I apparently don’t like reality very much! Yep that’s me! She identified the change in my relationship, told me what my kids were like and to be cautious going down stairs with no handrail or I would have a hard fall that could possibly break my leg. I was going to start doing stairs again with Carri but think I will heed that warning and put it off because there is no handrail at the track. She seemed to get the gist of what was going on in my life. Way too many coincidences to mention in this post but trust me, the hour was intense.

Patricia described in full detail a man who was going to be entering my life very soon “In a Big Way” name and all. Seriously isn’t this fun! Its like a game.

My favourite part, I have three angels, the first one was a little girl who died very young, very cheeky by nature, having never lived an adult life (I was told this 20 years ago by another psychic who was amazing) the second was my Aunt on my Mothers side who passed years ago, Margaret, she imitated her perfectly with a soft whisper. Margaret thinks I need some mothering of my own right now and reminds me to “just breathe”. There was another angel standing behind me which was a male energy but she couldn’t pick up anything in detail.

I didn’t NEED to have someone tell me what my past was like, I was there. I didn’t NEED to have someone tell me what I was doing right now, I am here. I didn’t NEED for someone to tell me what my future would bring, my future is now…now…and yes now! I had a reading because if I could peek into my future I would. I left my reading with a positive energy and with a little comfort that what I was doing on a daily basis was leading me in the direction I hope to be going in.

If given the chance to ask someone who has psychic ability questions, I think we would all give it a shot out of curiosity. I didn’t need a psychic to tell me any of this, but its thought provoking if nothing else. I will keep you posted if anything materializes! 🙂

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Relive One Day!

Okay ladies if you could Relive One Day all over again what day would you pick and why?

TTracy Relives the Past~

While running last Saturday August 15th 2009 which is my son Jesse’s birthday I couldn’t help but reflect back on that day eleven years ago.  Jesse was my first child, who gave me the gift of being a Mom.  While I relived that day in my mind as I ran I wished that I could go back to it and do it all over again.

Eleven very memorable years have past since that day and it still brings tears to my eyes thinking of becoming a Mom for the first time.  On that day my life as I once knew it changed.  My heart stretched bigger than I could have ever imagined.  I felt everything more intensely.  My maternal instincts all came alive on that day.

I remember Bonnie once told me after the birth of her son James that if she was told she had to eliminate everyone on this planet to save his life she would do it in a mother’s heart beat.  I disagreed and said “I would save my husband, my soul mate, you can always have another child.”  On August 15 1998 everyone on the planet was fair game if I was ever faced with that dilemma.  Yes even my soul mate, gone, every single one of you!

The magnitude of emotion that pours through your soul is indescribable.  You can’t believe this little human being came from you and your partner, you created them !  They grew inside of you for 10 months and every moment is surreal, from finding out you were pregnant to feeling your babies first flutter, to the grand finale of holding your precious little baby.  I felt overwhelming love.  It was hard to believe you could love something so small, so much, instantly.  When you touch for the very first time the connection is pure magic.  It’s falling in loves in it’s purest form.  Bliss.  I can tell you without a doubt that being a Mother has been the best thing I have EVER done.  Every day I have the pleasure of spending time with my kids is a blessing I am forever thankful for.  So ladies what day would you like to relive again?   Birth of Jesse

jacquie janzen yeeJacquie~

Great photo, Tracy!   Isn’t it funny how our minds work?  When I read the question I understood it to mean what day would you like to ‘do over’ as in erase from memory with a clean slate and get it right this time kinda thing.  Ha! Like I could pick just one!

I’d have to say I’d love a retake of the day I competed for Miss Teen Vancouver back when I was 15.  My sister had invited several our friends to be in the audience and so the pressure was on to do well.  During the interview portion I remember the other girls getting great questions like ‘Which famous character from a novel do you admire most?’ (Elizabeth from Pride and Prejudice) or ‘Should Phys Ed still be taught in high schools?” (yes)

My question was about women’s lib.  Now, I knew nothing about women’s lib, being only 15, and so my answer upset some feminists in the audience and apparently I got some boos from their direction.  Yowza!  I think I said something  about how I felt men and women were made differently for a reason and so each were better suited for specific jobs.  It had to do with how our brains processed info differently.  Yeah, I know…painful!   For years I would cringe whenever I thought of that day, and the way my friends were buckled over with laughter at my faux pas (they did take me out for a sundae at White Spot afterwards to soothe my jangly nerves).

I have a much broader grasp on the topic now and could handle that question so much better if given the chance, but I still think men and women deal with issues differently and bring unique talents to the table based on gender.   I just needed a more PC way to say it when I was 15!

Vive La Difference!

Bonnie Johnson's PostBonnie Looks Back~

First off, I just have to say ~  “I LOVE that photo Tracy!”  The joy on your face is so uplifting.  A perfect moment caught by the camera forever.

When I first thought about the subject for this post I had a few wonderful memories pop into my head.  Some of the “firsts” would be worth reliving (some not).  I thought I might write about a carefree day in my childhood, a time before I knew any disappointment or sadness.

Instead I’m thinking back to the day that James was born.  It wasn’t the same for me as it was for Tracy.  I didn’t feel an instant connection like she did.  I felt odd, like I didn’t know who the strange little person was who lay so near me in his little hospital crib.   I really didn’t.  Everyone around me expected me to just know how to handle him and what he wanted whenever he squeaked.  I didn’t have a clue.  Those maternal instincts did not rush in the moment I laid eyes on him.  It happened slowly for me.  I gradually began to love every ounce of the demanding little stranger, but not instantly.  I did feel a strong need to protect the little gaffer.  Knowing him and loving him the way I do now does make me want to go back and relive that day.   To really understand the gift of sharing the very first day of life with my precious son.

And then I’d like to relive each and every day with him after that too.  Because now that he has grown and moved away I look back and wish I could have appreciated each of those days more.  Yes  I would have done some things differently for sure, but most of all I would have enjoyed every single moment of the time we lived together.  Sigh.

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