On The Road to Reality…

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IMG_0066From where I have come is a question I ask myself often. Why am I here? What is my purpose, if not to live a life wrapped in true romantic love. It has taken me years to come to the realization that the path in which I have followed, is perhaps not going to lead me to where I dream of being…

Reality is like the devil in my world. Born Aquarius, I naturally look to the future. I live in a different world. I am a daydreamer, a night-dreamer and as far back as I can remember, I willingly escaped to the life my imagination created carefully in my head. I danced until dawn. I laughed until I cried. I kissed like it was goodbye. I loved with my heart and soul. I believed in true love and fairy tale romance. I lived it, inhaled it with every breath I took. My quest was simple…to capture ‘that’ feeling one gives you when you connect deeply through the windows of your soul. That look that makes you smile from a place so intimate your cheeks blush and skin heats from within.

I live in the clouds and spin my dream into interludes trying to capture a moment in time that makes my heart beat faster. The language of love. My imagination fulfills my romantic desires but I yearn for more than just those whimsical thoughts that floated by, way up high.

I have packed my bag lightly with a few belongings, mostly memories gone by, a leather bound notebook, a pencil to scribble my thoughts, a piece of jewelry I cherish and an old photograph that will remind me who I am. As I look around my space comes alive. My past flashes before my eyes like old movies playing on the projector in my mind.

I put my hand on the door in front of me feeling the energy that radiates behind it. This particular door will open when it’s ready. Until then I will stand close and feel its warmth pass through me. Like a child waiting to open a gift, the anticipation is overwhelming. For now, I will float among familiar ones that take me back to sift through the meanings that they brought forth to help create who I have become. Each one was placed in my path for a reason, a life lesson. You never know where a door will lead if you fear the unknown.

I sit on my cloud and contemplate what was and what will be. Each life experience or door I was courageous enough to venture through took part in making me who I am today as I pack my bag ready to come down from where I have called home since I was a child. It’s time.

I bow my head as I approach a new beginning with tears in my eyes of memories I hope never get lost in the shuffle of life. I savor each moment as I slowly reach forward and place my hand on the ornate worn knob. The moments I want to bring with me are safely placed at my side if I feel homesick, a familiar feeling as a child. There will always be a silver thread holding me to what I am not meant to let go.

The energy from behind the door waiting for me glows with a light so warm it almost feels like home. It distracts me from this moment like a future waiting to unfold.

So you see, I do know from where I’ve come. I need not know why I am here. My purpose is to be. True love is all around me. I will arrive when it is time. It is only now where I want to be in mind, body and spirit. I need not a daydream or fantasy in my life to feel full, reality can be as exciting as the world inside my mind.

Svaha ~

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Svaha Spirit Series ~ Life Looks for Life

Carl Sagan was an astronomer, educator and author. He is well known for his work on the PBS series Cosmos, the Emmy and Peabody award winning show that became the most watched series in public-television history. He died in 1996 of bone marrow cancer but left a legacy that will provoke thought and wonder until the end of time. I don’t think any of us spend enough time star gazing, talking about what is beyond our world. It is a topic I don’t tire of. What is out there? Who is out there? Are we alone? The questions are endless to those who are intrigued and want more than what we can see here in front of us. I was mesmerized by this series…it left me wanting more, much much more.

“Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere.”
Carl Sagan ~



My Life Starts When My Eyes Close ~

Do you ever feel like your life starts when your eyes close. I do. It’s when every single thing in my life is left up to my imagination. I can play dress up and live anything my mind is willing to create. I just let go of who I am and become what I chose.

I remember as far back as 7 years old, when I loved to go to bed just to enter into my imagination. It was a sense of freedom which was safe and full of adventure. I would create scenarios in my mind and see where I was willing to take them. I wasn’t trying to escape from somewhere I didn’t want to be, it was like playing dress up with endless possibilities! After a while its like an orchestrated dance, everything just flows naturally. Its like an alternate reality. Drifting off into your imagination before you slip into a deep sleep is one of my favourite things to do. And when done to the music of Enya it’s simply fantastic!

Albert Einstein

I am a dreamer, surrounded by fluff and clouds, it’s who I am. At times I wear rose coloured glasses and I like it that way. I dream vividly and love the feeling when I wake, having escaped into another world that I cannot control. When my eyes open, my imagination sits and waits for its turn to recreate where it left off. It follows me, seeping into my day to day without notice. My brief smile, far away stare or moment of peace is the only sign it leaves behind.

Our imaginations are being set aside and lost in our world of reality. For our imaginations to flourish we need to use them or we will forget how. Imagine that!


Her Imagical Power

“I’d love to write a book one day” she said.  “So would everyone else” he replied.

“I know she’s famous but I could see myself being friends with her one day” she said.  He laughed “So could everyone else.”

“One day I will earn enough money to buy ____________” she said.  He just rolled his eyes and walked away.

She had other dreams that she dared not say out loud.

She realized then that her dreams were worthless because apparently “everyone” has the same dreams. If that is the case then what makes her so special that she should be able to attain them when others far greater than her fail all the time?  She isn’t smarter than “everyone” she isn’t luckier than “everyone”.  How silly then to dream of such things.

She almost gave up on dreaming after that.  But then something boiled up from within her that made her want to yell “screw you!” She didn’t actually yell that, but she wanted to.  Instead she thought  “Wait a minute.  So what if no one but you believes in your dreams.  They are your dreams not theirs.  So what if they seem unattainable to others.  It’s more important that they feel attainable to you.”

It’s easy to give up when you don’t feel supported by others but dreams don’t happen because of other people’s beliefs, they only happen when you believe in them.

“Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win.” William Shakespeare

She learned along the way that life can be magical and the magic comes from our imagining.  If we can imagine something, we can create it.  She calls it her imagical power! We just have to want something badly enough, see it in our minds eye, feel it in every cell of our being and believe that it is ours.  It had worked for her in the past when she was younger but she had begun to worry that time had worn down her imagical powers.  Not so! It’s a universal power we all have for life but sadly for many it lays dormant.

“Imagination is the beginning of creation.
You imagine what you desire, you will what you
imagine, and at last you create what you will.”
George Bernard Shaw

She may remind him that her imagical power worked to bring him to her all those years ago. Or she may not say a word.  It really only matters that she knows the strength of her power and that she remembers to keep using it; regardless who believes or doesn’t believe in it.

“To believe in the things you can see and touch
is no belief at all; but to believe in the unseen
is a triumph and a blessing.”
Abraham Lincoln

I couldn’t agree more Bill, George, Abe and Albert!