Jesse Jagger…

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From the moment I knew my first child was growing inside me, I felt blessed. A chapter began in my life that would be like no other. I loved being pregnant more than anything I have done in all my years on Earth! It’s simply a miracle feeling a child that you created with love, moving within you! Jesse Jagger you changed my life.

Jess was born large and by large I mean,10 pounds 3 ounces, 24 inches long and a cranium that measured 19 inches…;0 (c-section thank the stars above!) He was in the 99th percentile for everything! Jesse was nick-named ‘Baby Sumo’ by the nurses, having taken up residence next to triplets born on the same day. He wasn’t too interested in joining us on earth, being 11 days overdue. He took his sweet time gracing us with his presence. I think he was given a nudge by the angles above and promised the trip on the other-side would be as wild as the one within.

IMG_2276Jess, you are such a special part of my life, I adore every single bit of who you are as you navigate down your path in life. I will be forever grateful that I am able to walk next to you with an open heart (and mind) as you share what you learn along the way. You enlighten me with your wisdom, openness and willingness to experience life without fear. You scare the living daylights out of me somedays when I am a one dimensional Mom, but that’s to be expected. I get equally as thrilled when I think of you as a young man who has such a thirst for life unlike the norm…but then how could your Dad and I have ever created anything beige? You are my boy! My handsome, smart, caring, loving, calm, talented, intellectual boy that views life as a spirit who has been here before.

DSC_0311Flash me your charismatic smile that makes your eyes sparkle and I will give you the world and everything in it. Wrap your arms around me and I will make you whatever your heart desires. Mom’s just need love from their boys to make their world smile.

Jess, I love you more than any words could possibly express, it goes beyond the love I thought my heart had to give. My love for you is limitless. I will always be at your side if you need a ear to listen, a warm heart to hug, or a soul searching moment to share.

I love you forever, I love you always…

Happy Birthday Jesse Jagger, I smile at the life you have to create, knowing it is going to be a ride just watching! Continue to make it your own Jess, just be you! I look forward to each moment we have together, stretching boundaries, and learning along the way! You calm my heart and soothe my soul just thinking about you!

Mom (((((smile)))))

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…you are so loved! 

 

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Artist ~ Robert Westerholm

Yesterday I chose to write about Artist Kathy Kromer, today I would like to write about another Artist that I have admired my entire life, my Dad, Robert Westerholm. Today is my Dad birthday so I thought it was fitting to write about him on this special day.

Happy Birthday Dad!

My Dad is one of the most creative people I have ever known. Born and raised in Vancouver, he attended the old Vancouver School of Art and is known primarily for his finely detailed pen and ink drawings. I draw stick people. I may not have inherited his artistic talent in the art sense but I know for sure I got his sense of humour and passion for writing, so I’m happy! 🙂

Since my daughter was very little she loved to sit and draw with my Dad and it’s becoming apparent that she too got the artistic gene from him. My Dad wanted to posted a painting Jordan did on his website when she was 6 and when he asked her permission to display it, her only concern was that he was going to put his name on it and not give her credit! lol Random thought here but have you ever played Pictionary with an artist? You NEVER win when you are paired up with them but man does their picture ever look real! lol Like Kathy Kromer my Dad became an artist through perseverance and practise, which basically means Never Give Up!

My Dad is also a writer, I think I was lucky to get a sliver of his genetics in that department! His words are like reading poetry, so visually descriptive, obviously coming from a man with an incredible imagination! Check out his website Caterwauls or his original blog Caterwauls if you would like to laugh out loud, get lost in his imagination, or be stimulated by his thought process, all of the above will happen depending on how much time you spend meandering through his site. His advice to me when I started on my writing adventure was to just go for it! I have a lot to learn but I think that’s the best part!

His artwork has been in many different Galleries over the years and is recognized by his detailed Vancouver scenes. But if art, music and writing weren’t enough to stir his creative juices, maybe acting will, perhaps you will recognize his handsome face from commercial, print and film work he’s done! What I love about my Dad the most is that he just keeps going, reaching and searching for what stimulates his mind and stirs the creative soul he was born with! I am very proud of my Dad as you can see and love spending time with him just talking about stuff. When I am in his presence there is never a dull moment! He has always inspired me to follow my heart with a wide open mind! I love you Dad! xo

On The Fraser by RC Westerholm (copyright)

The Yoyo by RC Westerholm (copyright)

Western Breeze by RC Westerholm (copyright)

Vancouver by RC Westerholm (copyright)


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Happy Birthday James!

Happy Birthday James! I can’t believe how time flies. You were my very first impression of what it would be like to have a child. Living with you and your Mom was a time in my life I will always look back on and smile. You’re an incredible soul and I love you with all my heart! I have memories that I will cherish forever! You’re my Best friends child, it doesn’t get much better than that! I wish you the BEST Birthday ever! Be safe always and never live with any regret…any big regret! lol I can’t believe your 21! Your Mom and I were in Australia when I turned 21 and all I can say is YIKES! I know you’re more mature than we ever were, crossing my fingers right now in hopes you are! xo

Watching you play your guitar and sing is a highlight in times we have spent together. (playing hide the stinky socks was fun too) (Wiping your butt @ 3 I could have done without, I was totally set up on that!  lol) You are amazing! When I am missing you I drop in to your Facebook page not to creep or judge but to get my James fix. I always love it when you link to music.

I love finding new music. I should clarify, new music for ME. I have been know to be stuck when it comes to tunes, and this is a perfect example, I will admit I thought Train was New! I am not up to date with the music world and couldn’t sing a song in tune if my life depended on it, but I’m willing to at least give it a try. I went off on Facebook saying I recorded myself singing “Hey Soul Sister” but I regret to tell you, it’s wayyy too embarrassing to post. I know what I like, I just don’t know who they are and the name of the song. I also have a tendency to play my new favourite songs to death, drives everyone around me crazy. I think maybe subconsciously I hope I will be able to remember the song if I hear it a bazillion times, no such luck. Thanks James for the music links. I would love to hear your version of this song, I know it would be incredible.

Happy Birthday James, enjoy every moment of the day it’s all about celebrating YOU and that is something to celebrate!!! We love you! A-T and family! xo

Crank it up ~

Happy Birthday James!

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Therapy Session ~

Happy Birthday Scott! (March 25) A year has past since I wrote a Birthday wish for you here on Tara Cronica and what a year it has been. We have moved in directions we weren’t aware even existed and have grown independent yet together along the way. We have faced change within ourselves and embraced it with no fear. I think you’re amazing. You’re an incredible man to have by my side. I am grateful for your strength, support and honesty and appreciate all you do. I look forward to the next chapter in life, where you will grow and unfold and I will become who I am meant to be. Thanks for making me smile out loud everyday!

Now my post for today ~

After a great session with my male therapist (Dr.Scott La Rock) I came to realize I don’t live in the moment as much as I should. I get caught up in life as we all do. I’ve been feeling let down by people and life all while trying to adjust to major change that’s happening at light speed in my world. I will be the first to admit I’ve lived in a fantasy world for a long time, okay since I can remember, maybe since I was 5, and it seems like my world keeps getting brutal shots of reality which I am not too fond of. I figure, if I start to get cynical or bitter, there is really no hope for the rest of you!

After my therapy session (not a real therapist for those who don’t know me) we together came to the realization that ~

1) I created this wonderful fantasy and live in it by choice.

2) It’s actually my perception of individuals that keep letting me down not them.

3) I need to remember ‘It is what it is.’

There are a lot of GREAT people out there, REAL people who are sharing their inspiration in this world. Those are the people I want to spend my precious time with, not the time wasters, naysayers or takers. I’ve noticed not as many people keep their word anymore, nobody really cares if they effect someone else’s life as long as it doesn’t effect them. (That’s just wrong)

This is one of the reasons Tara Cronica is so important to me, it’s a meeting place where everyone can find inspiration, friendship and creativity, it’s here for those who need it and it’s free, it’s also here for those who want to share their inspiration, but mostly it just feel right to me.

We are three different women with three different views and opinions living truthfully under completely different circumstances. I am sure you can relate to at least one of us. We are not trying to be, and certainly don’t think of ourselves as do gooders, but I can tell you that Tara Cronica has changed the way I live my life. I try harder to look for the good in everything, even on the days it feels unnatural. (doesn’t always work but I’m aware) I am trying to be a better person and I believe I am since I started this journey. I get discouraged just like everyone else does at life and love. I break down, I get bitchy, (hard to believe I know) I can be difficult, (who me?) and when that happens I find it helpful to talk to you, here.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and have my life as an open book so that I can be related to. If I get back into the moment and I take away the fact that I was tired, hormonal, and absolutely everything in my life is changing (acceptance without resistance, thanks Bonnie) and adjust my perception, people/things don’t seem so bad anymore. Scott you are a great guide in life to walk beside, a very important male perspective that I learn from everyday. I needed a recharge and by talking I got just that.

When I look at those who were making me feel discouraged, with a clear perception, I now see souls who didn’t set out to hurt my feelings, but perhaps have things to work out for themselves. Maybe they just need to see that we are all the same with issues, trying our best to come out on top. I hope that by coming here it will help them move forward in life and see that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. We might not always be on track in life, but as long as we keep taking steps in the right direction and put ourselves out there I think we grow and move forward learning along the way.

Two things come to mind now, ‘what a difference a day makes’ and ‘this too will pass.’  Thanks everyone for taking the time to visit, listen and share your voice with me!

Svaha ~

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Happy Birthday Mom!

Today is my Moms birthday so I wanted to share a few things about her with you because she is a very special woman in my life. When I was a little girl I had a very hard time being away from my Mom. I was unable to make it through the night at any sleepover with girlfriends because I got very homesick just thinking about her. I never went to Brownie camp or Outdoor school because I just couldn’t be away from her. My Mom always came willingly, without question to pick me up each time and embraced me with a hug and kiss and never once made me feel bad about it. She offered to be my ‘excuse’ of why I wasn’t allowed to stay over because I was too embarrassed to tell anyone I was homesick for her. She was always there for me, and still is. She let me stay home from school when she could feel I was missing her, and now I do that for my daughter because I understand. Nothing was more important to her than love. My Mom is a very affectionate woman who has always got a hug, cuddle or back tickle waiting for anyone who asks. (well maybe not anyone :))

As I got older and more independent I learned a great deal more from her. She was/is a very strong business woman with natural leadership. I admire her strength and ability to do any job she takes on. She worked, ran a household and maintained a loving marriage for over 50 years! That is almost unheard of these days. I leaned the importance as a women to be self sufficient, independent and that I mattered! One thing my Mom said to me when I was in my teens has always stayed with me. It was basic and simple. She told me “God forbid if something ever happened to your Dad, I would survive”. She wanted me to know how important it was to love someone but to not depend on any one person to dictate your life, so that you were capable yourself of doing what you needed to, to stand on your own two feet.

I appreciated what my Mom did for me when I was young and now I understand, being a Mom myself. Over the years my Mom has given me great advice, most of the time I took it unless I was stretching my arms of independence. My Mom is a very generous soul who gives what she has to anyone in need. She has taught me to be independent, strong, loving, caring and most important to always try because when you try, you really see what you are capable of. Thanks Mom for being such a wonderful loving supportive person in my life, you’re so loved!

Photo taken by Scott Wellenbrink

Happy Birthday ! We love you ~ xo

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Post-It Love

bonnie-darkHappy Tuesday everyone and Happy Birthday Lozz!! You’ve caught up to me!  And Happy Anniversary Barry and Lozz!  (Yep, he married her on her birthday…that’s either really romantic or a clever way to guarantee never forgetting his anniversary having already memorized her birthday ; )  )barry-and-lozz

In celebration of today’s union of love between my good friends I want to share this very sweet video I’ve recently come across.  It is guaranteed to make you smile.  Enjoy!

Bonnie

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