Intimacy…

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Intimacy…the ultimate sexy! Being drawn to someone without control is a feeling that many of us only experience once in a lifetime. It’s a magical force between two who connect on a much deeper level. It’s not just about sexual chemistry, although that too can be very intimate. Pure intimate feelings come from a much deeper place. A touch of the hand while staring into the eyes of someone who sees right inside your soul is intimate. A feeling of belonging together formed from a bond of experiencing the other.

There are two types of intimacy; physical and emotional. Love is intertwined in both. There are also two types of love within intimacy; compassionate and passionate. Compassionate love involves diminished feeling of attachment to the other. It is authentic, committed with profound feelings of caring for the other. Passionate love is identified by infatuation, intense feelings of sexual longing, throes of ecstasy and feelings of exhilaration that fill the room when you are together. To have a combination of both physical and emotional intimacy with passionate love is what most of us are ultimately seeking.

It’s a look across a room filled with people to that one person who turns you inside out and back again. A gaze that is only meant for you. A moment suspended in time. They know exactly what you’re thinking. It’s the magic of an intimate connection.

When we open our heart and expose ourselves making it known we are vulnerable to the other we experience the most profound intimate moments. It can’t be controlled, even if you try. You can walk away physically but your mind won’t allow you to leave the room they’re in. It can be a scary step if you’re not ready to open yourself to its entirety. A risk that many will not allow their heart to explore.

When you fall intimately for another human being they live inside your mind. They change the physiology of your body. They stir your soul. You become enveloped by their energy. They surround you no matter how far their physical form is from yours. They stand next to you inhaling your presence. It’s a powerful sensation that can overwhelm the ordinary.

Intimacy is considered the product of a successful seduction…so sexy!

Tracy~

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Morning Interlude…

IMG_0096_3_2My mind wakes to the smell of fresh brewed coffee. I slowly inhale the aroma that fills the air. A light breeze gently kisses my exposed cheek good-morning as I stretch my leg across the bed to find you. You are gone long enough for your body heat to leave the sheets cool to touch. The warmth of the sun on the flowers outside the window infuse yet another scent in the air. Mock Orange wafts across my body, only covered by a light sheet that has fallen to the curve of my waist. My shoulders feel cool and fresh not having your arms wrapped around them. I feel your energy in the room. You gazes upon me as I lay still enveloped by the thoughts of last night. Our thoughts pass back and forth to one another connecting on a spiritual level, intertwine like a story spoken aloud. I hear you. I feel you sifting through each one, trying as I do to focus but there are too many that jump in front of the other. You slip gently out the door knowing I need more time to play our encounter over again before I wake.

Our intimate early morning embrace that lead to yet another passionate moment shared between us keeps me from opening my eyes…I enjoy equally my fantasy of what you have done to me from the moment we met, to the reality of our first encounter, to this moment. You have never left me, even for a second.

My first conscious thought of the night sends me back into full-blown passion that exploded between the sheet. My body reacts. The crisp cotton fabric slowly releases the infused energy captured between us, sending visual pictures frame by frame like an old movie playing on the inside of my eye lids.

The warm sun casts a light flash on my face as I feel your energy once again enter the room in your physical form. The air is pulled from the window across my hair tickling my face as you open the door. All of my senses are enhanced by not seeing you. I feel you, I hear your heart beat bouncing off the walls crashing into mine. I smell your masculine pheromones fill the air knowing what is on your mind.

A Morning Interlude ~ to be continued…

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Temptation…

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IMG_0096_3_2He pulled me in without a promise. He pushed me back in fear. His body moved like a panther stalking. He circled slowly not taking his eyes off me. Intensely engaged his stare glazed over as he tasted my body with his eyes. His insatiable desire to have me overpowered his ability to fight the temptation that stood behind closed doors at last. He was about to devour the prey he’d been hunting for far too long. He was moments away from taking what he believed belonged to him.

As he savoured the visual moment his thoughts balanced on the edge, about to spin out of control. T-e-m-p-t-a-t-i-o-n had entered the room and would not leave without a fight. His mouth watered at the thought of what my skin would taste like. He swallowed the saliva that pooled behind his lips, knowing he could not turn back once his mouth touched mine. His eyes gently closed as he inhaled my scent slowly and deeply.

I felt his eyes heating up the curve of my lower back as he paused before taking another step. I bit my lip gently as I turned my head catching him off guard with a look that penetrated his wall, exposing his soul. I whispered…check~mate. We were like magnets attracting and repelling each others every move. He caught my glance and held it tight. I felt the shift in his breathing ever so slightly as he narrowed the distance between us. I could feel the base of his heart beating like a wave of energy going right through me. His energy was like music to my soul. We were entangled in a dance neither of us were familiar with.

I closed my eyes to sharpen my intuition and escape into the abyss with him. His energy moved me as he came even closer. He vibrated my skin and scrambled my thoughts. Every hair on my body stood erect waiting, wondering if he was brave enough to dance as one. His breath on the back of my neck sent shivers down my spine. I could barely contain myself. Temptation was standing closer than it had ever been before. Whispering in my ear to succumb to its pleasure. We were both no longer able to walk away. Our minds were reading the thoughts of the other, our bodies ached for one another and our spirits were a breath away from coming completely undone.

He teased and tantalized my energy with the look in his eyes as he opened his mouth, moistened his lips and inhaled my being in one breath. There would never be a moment as pure as this between us again.

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it” ~ Oscar Wilde 

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In the Light of the Moon ~

His words captivated me from the very first moment. He drew me in ever so gently with the soft flow of our conversation. Subtle innuendos floated between us, stimulating a depth to each verse that was written. I cautiously read between his lines. His words were unique, piquing my interest. He intrigued my mind, body and soul. His energy was like a magnet slowly leading me down a path I’d yet to explore. He stirred my emotions, passionately placing poetic prose along the way for me to taste. I savoured each one, cautiously looking back trying to keep my bearings. I quickly became comfortably lost, not knowing from where I came. All my senses were tuned at once. He knew exactly how to capture me. We connected deeply, having never met in the physical realm. I wondered if he was a figment of my imagination…an exploration or adventure I yearned for. My heart would stay safe and protected as I reached for more, as long as my eyes stayed gently closed.

We reached fearlessly to another level…I heard his voice and instantly felt our connection deepen. As his first word slip slowly from his mouth my ears anticipated his tone. I held my breath in hope. He became real in that moment. I floated away on the magical story blanket he carefully lay beneath me…I was open to where ever he would take me. Trust.

Each day my mind drifted back into the clouds where he waited for me. We embraced with our energy. I wonder if somehow we reconnected from another time. He felt familiar in a way I could not explain. He had come back for a reason. Perhaps he heard me call.

I could feel him enter my room each night, whispering in my ear...I want you. His energy washed over my body, making me forget I was alone. He stood close enough that I felt his breath on my neck. The energy in his palms and finger tips followed the curves of my silhouette. My walls slipped off my shoulders and fell to the ground like the satin fabric that gently touched my body. I was open, willing and ready to let go of everything, surrendering to him as we started our dance in the light of the moon.

Our energy intertwined, making love to one another, wrapping us both in a warm glow. We continued to inhaled the essence of the moment, both left wanting more. I courageously opened my eyes finding myself floating on what was. I could still feel his presence in the room, he was unable to leave. We were attached to one another by a thin silver thread. I slipped into a dream like state, knowing he was there watching…content to just be.

To not touch the man who caressed my soul with his mind would become painful. To not taste his lips or feel his heart beat would sadden my soul as each day past. To not take the chance that we may explode into something neither of us had experienced, was frightening. How could a man I had never met make me feel so scared and safe at the same time.

Like the moon and the morning sun, we continue to long for one another…

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Past-Present-Future = Now!

When will we learn to let go of our past? Now is so much more important. Why is history so important to some of us? Does it keep us in our comfort zone? I think so. Years ago a relationship I thought I’d let go of kept seeping back into my life. Just as I would forget and move on it would reappear somehow. Was it the hopeless romantic in me wanting my fairy tale ending? Was it the Universe testing me? Unresolved romance? It can be hard to let go of what was then and concentrate on what is now. Does anyone else relate to this? We can sometimes live in what was. The key is not to get ‘stuck’ in our past especially if it wasn’t a healthy one! Fortunately mine was.

No matter how good you recall a relationship was you moved on or they did for a reason…right? Or was the timing just not quite right? Do we only remember the good? Is that so bad?

I’ve learned first hand that when you focus on the past you stay in the past preventing you from seeing what’s right in front of you. When you bring the past into the present is that living in the Now? Technically maybe and that’s fine if your past was good. If you bring negative energy into the now your just recreating more negative energy.

When you look back do you feel any regret? Do we like to revisit our past from time to time to ensure we have moved on without any regret or do we slip back into what was? I have small regret but nothing on a grand scale that makes me cringe thankfully. Maybe that’s why I like to float back in time.

I love my past and maybe that’s why I have a hard time letting it go at times. I think past, present and future are all good. I think we all like to revisit our past from time to time. It can be a healthy part of our life. I certainly wouldn’t want to be stuck in my past. Being able to balance our past with the present is ideal. Holding onto elements of where we came from helps keep us grounded. Looking back on where we were tells a lot about who we are.

Life is about learning. We need life experience to have growth and unfold as human beings. As long as we move forward in life I think it’s all good. Sometimes I think it’s beneficial to step back in time if for no other reason than as a reminder of how far we’ve come. Our past is what makes us who we are in our present. Any way you look at the past-present-future they = Now. And there is no better place on earth than right here, right now ~

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In the Mind of a Hopeless Romantic~

TJ It’s like a record playing over and over in your head, the song you just can’t stop humming. It’s become so familiar that it is a part of who you are. It’s not just in my head, I feel it every time I think of him. I’ve been wrapped in his spell for as long as I can remember. I can’t find my way out, every time I try and I have tried, it just starts all over. My hopeless romantic mind will not let it go. When he does finally come for me, and he will, the world will spin out of control trying to balance the electrical force we will create when we do finally surrender to one another.

There I was, standing in a room filled with music, people and chatter. I was engaged in a conversation with a complete stranger who was standing so close I could feel his breath on my ear as each word danced from his mouth. He was warm and passionate. He was someone I could spent hours talking to, the conversation was effortless, flowing easily.

The Kiss in the CrowdAs we were exchanging words, I glanced across the room and there he was…just standing there looking at me. Instantly my entire body was wrapped in his energy. You could hear the sparks fly across the room between us. The chemistry was magical. My entire being was encircled by his. If I closed my eyes I think I might have been able to hear his heart beat. His stare was intoxicating, looking deep inside me. There was no need for words, the look on his face expressed his intentions crystal clear. The connection was unbreakable, everything disappeared, the people, the conversation, even the music. He walked directly towards me with such certainty. My heart couldn’t beat any faster than it was at that very moment.

romantic kissWhen he was standing close enough to touch I felt the strength in his arms scan my body moving upwards. As his strong hands cupped my jaw line, I closed my eyes slowly to focus on my next breath of air. When my eyes opened we connected once more just as he leaned in and opened his mouth slightly. I was completely enveloped in the moment.  I was taken to a place I thought only existed  in my mind. He was breathing from his chest, the closer his lips got to touching mine the faster our pulses raced until we were completely in sync. Our lips touched, mixing our chemistry creating a concoction neither of us had tasted before. We stood silent in the moment. I would remember this feeling for eternity.

Our lips slowly parted, both overwhelmed by passion, there was no going back. I opened my eyes to the voice of my complete stranger standing next to me “Tracy, dance with me”, grabbing my hand he lead me through the crowd to the dance floor. I smiled, still in the moment inside my hopelessly romantic mind. I paused and looked around the room one last time, then danced like no one was watching~

I was listening to Michael Bublé while running and loved the words to his song “Haven’t Met You  Yet”, then I saw the video and had to add it to my post, seems I am not the only one !

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Music: The Sound Of Your Soul

Bonnie Johnson's PostI’d like to continue our “music” theme a little more.  Music is, and always has been, such a big part of my life.  After a statement like that you would think that I’d list all of the musical instruments I can play.  Speak to you about the hours of dedicated practice I put in to the piano, flute, violin, guitar, name an instrument…but, in fact, I don’t play any.  And I’ve never been able to sing well enough that others would want to pay to listen either.  (Or listen…period)

Although I don’t have a particular talent to make beautiful music, I have still been drawn to it and have loved it my whole life.  I love all kinds and genres of music.

I have a theory about that.

I believe that music is the sound of your Soul.  It is created by vibration.  Vibration is energy.  Energy is Source.  People who create beautiful music speak of being “inspired”.  I like to think of the word “inspired” as also meaning “in spirit”.

I remember listening to the sound track from “The Last of the Mohicans” and being moved to tears.  Not by any words, because there weren’t any, but just from the ebb and flow of the music itself.

I love it when the rhythm and beat of a song kicks your energy to the next level.  I’m not a jogger but on the rare occasions I have gone for a run, I swear the only thing that kept me going was by having some high energy songs pumping through my I-pod.

My son, James, plays the guitar and writes his own music and lyrics now.  He recently told me that when the stress of university starts to get to him he takes out his guitar and gets lost in his music.  It soothes his soul.  He re-aligns.

I’m reminded of the sound of OM or AUM which is the most often chanted sound in mantras.  It is believed that the whole universe, in its fundamental form, is made up of vibrating, pulsating energy.  OM is considered as the humming sound of this cosmic energy.  How cool is that!

Our Tara’s mantra is “Om Tare Tuttare Ture Svaha” and is featured on our Goddess Tara Bio page.

Something to think about!

Bonnie

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Here’s One Thing You Probably Don’t Know About Me

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Bonnie’s Take~

Apparently my partners are struggling to come up with something to write for this post.  I, on the other hand, have a number of options to go with.  Hmmm.  I wonder what that says about me.

I’ve decided to share my fire walking experience.  Yes, that’s right, I am one of those freaks who willingly walked on white hot coals for about 20 feet.  Why would anyone even want to do that you ask?  It began for me when I decided to enter a martial arts contest and I really wanted to win.  I was training with a variety of people for this particular bout.  One of the guys I trained with told me that if I went to the “fire walking” course and successfully walked on the hot coals I would be guaranteed to win my bout.  He said that once you have accomplished that feat there is nothing you feel you cannot do.  It’s a huge boost to your confidence.

I was just fascinated by the thought of learning to control my mind to the point that I could actually be able to have my physical body perform this amazing act.  I signed up for the full day course.  It was many years ago now but I remember that I enjoyed the experience immensely.  Looking back on my notes I wrote 3 things that I hoped to accomplish that day:   1.  Build confidence   2.  Overcome Fears   3.  Become the Best I Can Be In Any Endeavor.   I also see in my notes that it was important to me to prove to my young son that anyone can accomplish whatever they put their mind to.

I remember the main focus of the day was to obtain a peak state of energy.  I did, and at the end of the course the coals were white hot and waiting for us to prove we could “walk the walk”.  When it was my turn to step on to the coals I hesitated with doubt for a moment.  My mind was screaming “are you crazy!?”  So I jumped off.  Disappointed that I had failed I suddenly thought “NO! You can do this!”  I stepped back on with determination like I’d never known before and slowly walked the entire 20 feet.  When it was over I put my socks and shoes back on without looking at the soles of my feet.  I drove the 2 hour long drive home wondering if I had actually really done this crazy act.  Were my soles burnt and blistered?  When I got home I gingerly took off my shoes and socks and examined my feet.  Not a blister, not a mark.  I had done it!  I felt like I was invincible.  A few days later I had my martial arts contest and won my division.  The power of the mind is an amazing thing.

TracyTracy’s Two Cents~

I have to admit this topic was a lot harder than I thought it would be.  Although I am a very private person when it comes to how I spend my time, I think I am also a very open person when it comes to sharing my life through thought and opinion especially now with Tara Cronica.

The one subject that I have yet to address is my religious beliefs.  I think this is one of the very few things people don’t know about me.  I would describe myself as a very Spiritual person.  I find interesting aspects of many different religions such as Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism, African Traditional Religion, Wiccan Beliefs to name a few.  I believe in life after death, reincarnation.  I believe in Karma.  I believe we all come from an energy source.  We all have a destiny or life path that we follow to learn the lessons that we as individual souls need to learn in our time here on earth.  I believe we meet for a reason.

Religion is such a wide topic to cover which is why I have yet to explore it here on Tara Cronica.  I try to live by ‘The Golden Rule’  “Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them  Do Unto You”.  But I am far from perfect.  It’s pretty basic really.  I believe it doesn’t matter what religion you follow, whether it be one or many, but that you are living your life authentically being aware of others and being true to self.  I look forward to writing a more in depth post of what I specifically like about different religions or religious beliefs that I personally find interesting.   Great topic Bonnie it really got my mind thinking.  How about you Jake?

post-pic-4-11Jacquie’s response~

In 1981 I auditioned for my first ever film role and landed it after about 5 call backs.   I eventually turned the part down because it called for a little bit of nudity and at 16 I was slightly uncomfortable with that.  The movie starred Diane Lane and the Sex Pistols as well as a very young Laura Dern.  It was released on the indie and festival circuit as Ladies and Gentlemen, The Fabulous Stains and has enjoyed a cult following ever since, I’ve been told.  Could’ve been my big break.  Apparently Daryl Hannah was originally offered my role but she turned it down as well, so I’m in good company.

I watched it for the first time last night on some cable channel and I also TiVoed it in case one of my kids is interested to see what their mom might have been if she’d had the guts to pursue her dreams instead of worrying what the rest of the world would think.   I have to laugh it’s so bad!  Courtney Love bad!  Train wreck bad.  So bad it’s good… in an ‘I’m-having-a-mid-life-crisis-why-can’t-I-turn-back-the-hands-of-time’ kinda way.   If I had a do-over I’d take it.  And now you know…

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Can you feel it? The ‘Chi’ that is..

Symbol for Chi“Chi” is generally defined as “energy” or the “source of life.” The most ancient symbol for Chi, however, is three wavy lines which literally mean “air.” This is possibly why lung capacity is so important to maintaining your energy levels.

I had a completely different post prepared for today but after reading Jacquie’s post on Chi I felt inspired to continue along the same line because my comment on her post took on a life of it’s own.

Whether you believe in Chi or can even relate to it, you have to admit that when you go to certain places you feel inspired either while you are there or after you leave.  That happened to me yesterday while visiting with a very talented jewelry designers who creates unique pieces, all having a story.  I used to create jewelry myself a couple of years ago so I found her space very inspiring.  It made me want to bring out my tools and start creating again.  I am amateur in comparison and loved seeing the passion this designer has for the whole process.  Energy is what we felt in her home yesterday and for me it was a combination of several different kinds.  Artistic, Women Inspiring and Karmic!

People have an Aura of energy surrounding them that we all feel instinctively.  I think we cross paths with certain people in our lives at the time we are meant to.  We are naturally drawn to people with positive energy.  Creative people are naturally tuned into this energy field and are able to use the energy they feel to create whatever it may be.  A painter for example.  When I walk into Jacquie’s home and she has her paintings leaning casually against the base of the walls, I feel her energy in them!  They are inviting me to come take a closer look like they were programed to draw me near.  Her energy and inspiration rubs off on me when I touch them.

I think when you are open to this kind of energy you feel it everywhere you go whether it be from a person, place or thing, it’s there!   When I simply saw the picture of the new painting Jacquie is working on I naturally leaned in closer to my computer!  I think because even a picture of her beautiful painting has the energy she gives it while passionately creating it.  I LOVE Jacquie’s art and the colours she chooses, they make me smile.  I envy her ability to create beautiful art with a brush and oils.  I felt the same way yesterday when we were looking at a table full of …..creative energy!  Ha ! My lips are sealed for now.  When a room has Chi  and is combined with the artists energy, creative juices and passion for what they do, you can just feel it through the souls of your feet, and finger tips when you are invited to touch!  That is what keeps you there wanting to absorb more.

I too have had our home painted several times and until the latest we just weren’t  feelin it!  We would walk in our house and it felt like we were in the Gate room of the Stargate SG1!  Green concrete.  It was a popular colour in the magazines but for us it simply had no inspiration.  Now we have two shades of yellow which gives the room a Mediterranean feel.  Two very different feeling without a doubt.  I also painted my office before starting to write for Tara Cronica  because I knew I wouldn’t want to be in a room if I didn’t feel inspired.  I will admit though, I am sitting at my living room table looking out my front window at a wall of luscious green trees with sunlight streaming through the leaves.  I am inspired right here, so yes my room has ‘Chi’!

Tracy

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The Power of a smile

big smileI recently read a lovely comment about how offering a smile to someone was like blowing them a kiss from your soul.

I wish I could remember the exact quote but it certainly made me smile when I read it.

Later that day while I was out running some errands, I watched a few people smiling at each other and the reactions they received. Whoever was offered a smile always smiled back and their spirit seemed lifted. It made me think about how the energy of one persons smile seems to transfer to the person being smiled at. It was obvious that in those moments of ‘smile sharing’ everyone felt uplifted and happy. What a wonderful gift!

I decided to play with this a little. I went to my gym. I had noticed in the past that most of the women go about their workouts without looking at each other eye to eye. Oh, we all check each other out and assess the latest workout wear etc., but not many look each other in the eye and offer a smile. I made a deliberate choice to look directly at everyone who crossed my path that day and smile at them. The response was great! Everyone smiled back and some offered “hello’s” and “how are you today’s”. Then it struck me! There may have been lots of smiling going on before but I wasn’t participating. Now that I’m smiling at everyone I meet I’m receiving that great energy too.

It is so simple and yet so powerful.

Here is a wonderful piece I found that really sums it up beautifully.

“A SMILE costs nothing, but gives much. It enriches those who receive, without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he can get along without it, and none is so poor but that he can not be made rich by it. A smile creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in business, and is the countersign of friendship. It brings rest to the weary, cheer to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and is nature’s best antidote for trouble. Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.”

— believed to be based on the writings of Rabbi Samson Raphael Hirsch

smile– Bonnie : )

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