The Epitome of a Man

He arrived true to who he was. His look made her giggle like a school girl who balanced on the edge of desire. She watched him for a moment as he set his ride to the side. He slowly exposed who he was behind the facade that most could not see through. She walked toward him patiently taking in that first moment that was never to be again. She was enveloped in his presence before she even had a chance to see his eyes. She could feel him. For the first time in her life she needed not to look into the soul of the one who stood before her, his being was all around her, drawing her in like a curious child.

He shed his armour as she approached. He removed the lenses that kept his distance from the world that surrounded them. In that moment she knew by the look in his eyes that he was the kindred spirit she was meant to embrace.

The Angels that brought them together swirled around in their presence with light that would shine upon the Gods forever with the love they brought together.

A true gentleman, he reached politely for her hand with his, that adorned a story she needed to hear. The moment his hand touched hers she felt his entirety. There would be no regret in this first moment together. She reached out, opening her vulnerability and wrapped her arms around him. Her exposed cheek gently touched the hair that cloaked his jaw. The tender skin that covered her heart could feel his beat through the leather that protected his core. Her inner thigh brushed his ever so slightly sending her to a place she barely recognized. He emanated the truth he held deep within his soul.

…and then he spoke, and her heart began to open.

His gentle tone and eloquent choice of words assured her that he was deep with meaning and filled with love. As she gazed across the table listening and feeling his truth, his passion and desire captured her wrapping her safety in his arms.

He was the epitome of a man…

Tracy ~

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Morning Interlude…

IMG_0096_3_2My mind wakes to the smell of fresh brewed coffee. I slowly inhale the aroma that fills the air. A light breeze gently kisses my exposed cheek good-morning as I stretch my leg across the bed to find you. You are gone long enough for your body heat to leave the sheets cool to touch. The warmth of the sun on the flowers outside the window infuse yet another scent in the air. Mock Orange wafts across my body, only covered by a light sheet that has fallen to the curve of my waist. My shoulders feel cool and fresh not having your arms wrapped around them. I feel your energy in the room. You gazes upon me as I lay still enveloped by the thoughts of last night. Our thoughts pass back and forth to one another connecting on a spiritual level, intertwine like a story spoken aloud. I hear you. I feel you sifting through each one, trying as I do to focus but there are too many that jump in front of the other. You slip gently out the door knowing I need more time to play our encounter over again before I wake.

Our intimate early morning embrace that lead to yet another passionate moment shared between us keeps me from opening my eyes…I enjoy equally my fantasy of what you have done to me from the moment we met, to the reality of our first encounter, to this moment. You have never left me, even for a second.

My first conscious thought of the night sends me back into full-blown passion that exploded between the sheet. My body reacts. The crisp cotton fabric slowly releases the infused energy captured between us, sending visual pictures frame by frame like an old movie playing on the inside of my eye lids.

The warm sun casts a light flash on my face as I feel your energy once again enter the room in your physical form. The air is pulled from the window across my hair tickling my face as you open the door. All of my senses are enhanced by not seeing you. I feel you, I hear your heart beat bouncing off the walls crashing into mine. I smell your masculine pheromones fill the air knowing what is on your mind.

A Morning Interlude ~ to be continued…

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Embracing Who You Are ~

 

I have a lot going on in my life at the moment so the word change is ringing in my ears LOUD once again! Change is good…right? Closing one door to open another. I have been unfocused walking in a daze for a while. Can you say Monkey Brain! Nothing I can’t handle just lots of stuff happening at once.

Bonnie posted about The 3 A’s of Awesome last Sunday for our Svaha Spirit Series and although I didn’t watch the TEDtalk on Sunday it changed the way I viewed my life the moment I did. You NEED to watch it! I guarantee you will look at YOUR life with new awareness! Attitude, Awareness and Authenticity! Three very powerful words indeed!

I have been contemplating changing the way I write here on Tara Cronica for the last month or so. I have been wondering if I want to put myself out there anymore. I have shared myself extensively for the last 4 years. Although change seems to be coming at me in all directions, I think I just have to embrace the me I know and love. I am aware, I have a great attitude (99% of the time) and as far as I know I’m pretty darn authentic. I am occasionally unfocused, too passionate, lack patience, a little stubborn and think wayyyyyyyy too much about things I have no control over. I don’t always take my own advice but hey I’m human!

When I think of all the awesomeness my life has in it, none of the obstacles that were making me feel this way seem to matter as much! Awesome is right! It’s really all about perspective. I think we sometimes need to go deep in order to go home. I have gone to the depths I’m slightly uncomfortable with and have safely arrived back to the surface.

I have decided to embrace me for who I am which includes the questionable bits! I clearly have some work to do, but don’t we all? I like who I am for the most part and I love me. I question who I am and what I’m doing just like everyone else. When I do wander down this path there are a few things that help.

  • I take a deep breath.
  • Spray Rescue Remedy under my tongue.
  • Go for a run.
  • Listen to music.
  • Share with my incredible team of support.

My Mom has amazing advice 🙂 Bonnie calms my soul, The Chicksters are there every week no-matter what listening and giving their perspective, Carri makes EVERYTHING funny even when it shouldn’t be, Scott gives me the male perspective, You inspire me to write with your comments and continued support and all is well again. There is no judging, only understanding, listening and support! I love you all!

I am who I am and why I questioned it in the first place is a mystery! Embrace the quirky in you, it is what makes you unique.

Life is meant to be shared, not only with others but who you are. A friend of mine reminded me how important it is to just enjoy who I am right now. He said “You have less tomorrows than you do yesterdays” (thanks P.D)

So lets get this party started shall we!

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Touch Me ~ Hug Me!!

TracyI was enjoying coffee with a couple of girlfriends, sharing stories, when one of them admitted to being really touchy.  Not sensitive touchy but touchy feely.  I did actually noticed that she was very touchy a few times, but it felt nice to me, in a platonic kind of way.  It didn’t make me feel uncomfortable or anything like that, it was a fleeting thought really.  To be completely honest I love when girlfriends are touchy.  It make me feel like there is a real BFF bond there.  It automatically brings you closer to the person.  But when she was explaining that she was touchy, she sort of apologized for it.  I felt bad after that she was associating her touch with a negative feeling.  It’s really something you should naturally feel good about, being affectionate.  Most of us crave affection because we just don’t get enough.  That’s an underlying problem I think in most relationships but that is an entirely different topic.  We all started talking about how people hug and if they hug like they really mean it or like a stiff board.  Oh, we have all had the stiff board hug from someone who has hug repellent on.  It’s a horrible awkward moment.  I think the stiff board hug goes with the back pat!  I love hugs, they are such a uplifting gift to give and receive.  They are free and have absolutely no calories !!

hug couple rainHugging is a form of physical intimacy that usually involves holding your arms around another person or group of persons.  The hug is one of the most common human signs of love and affection, along with kissing.  I posted about Kissing XXX awhile back if you missed it check it out !  A hug can be given or received either publicly or privately without stigma in many countries, religions and cultures, within families, and also across age and gender lines.

A hug can be a romantic exchange between two people or just a sign of support and comfort.   We hug when we feel affection and emotional warmth towards someone .  Brief at times, it is used to show many levels of affection.  Hugs are not just exchanged between humans, many species of animals also engage in similar exchanges of warmth.  Hugging has been proven to have health benefits. One study has shown that hugs increase levels of oxytocin, and reduce blood pressure.  There is a good reason right there to start hugging the guy or gal next to you while waiting in a slow lineup at the bank.

hugsA simple conversation between friends can make us aware of those around us, allow us to be more in tune with our friends, provoke a thought which in turn leads to reaching out to touch someone…lol.  (Not there!)  No seriously though, flu or no flu I am going to start being more aware of connecting with those around me.  So if by next week I am known as the touchy feely lesbian, you’ll all know why.  I ‘m okay with that if it makes all of us more aware of the beautiful human being standing next to us in the line up for java.  So reach out and touch someone!  Better yet reach out and hug someone !  Sometimes all the person standing next to you needs is a little lovin, hug style.  We would all be much happier if we did have a little more human contact.

~Peace Out ~

Love this Video !! Free Hug Campaign goes all the way to Oprah!

Free Hug Campaign Website

Sick Puppies “All The Same”

Free Hugs on Oprah

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Old Souls

As soon as you look into their eyes, it’s obvious that some souls have been here before.  I met an old soul about 14 years ago when she was only 7.  She always had something unique to say.  She was a typical 7 year old on the outside but inside this little girl was someone I sensed had a great deal of knowledge.  I met her for a reason and knew it right from the very first moment.Kels

Quite often we would come home and find notes on our door with suckers taped to them.  She knew it would make us smile.  The suckers were the 7 year old coming out, but the words, printed perfectly in the note, were not those of child.  She was aware.

Our friendship grew over the years as did she.  She became busy with school and I with a new baby.  I thought of her often.  I would sit and imagine what she would be like as a teen or in her twenties.  I finally saw her at 16.  She was the same little girl just in a bigger body.  She was already an old soul so she was only able to change physically to me.

We had a chance meeting years later at a coffee shop where she worked.  We had eye contact that day but I was distracted after arriving very late for a coffee date with some friends.  She was too nervous to say anything because so much time had passed by.

We eventually found one another again.  It was very emotional.  I had a connection with this old soul that I could not explain.  She felt the same.  We wrote emails back and forth for weeks, each one bringing a tear to my eyes.  This little girl was now a young woman who knew exactly who she was from deep inside her heart.  I realized I had to look at her as an individual with no age attached.  It was hard at first, me being twice her age.  I was confused about the role of my friendship.  Was it a mother daughter friendship or a girlfriend?  7 years old at heart

She met both my kids and they instantly fell in love with her!  How could they not, she was still a 7 year old at heart, but had the wisdom of a fully evolved human being.  She recently sent me an email, and coming from a 23 year old it has to make you wonder if there are angels here on earth….

Quote:

“It has taken me a very long time to learn that people are always going to forget what I say, in fact, they will even forget what I do, but something they will never forget is how I made them feel.  I have grown to realize that my strength in helping others doesn’t come from the things I say or do, but rather from creating a feeling inside their hearts that will be forever lasting.  I said things to you today that you might never remember, I did things today that perhaps you have already forgotten, but if I caused a feeling in your heart that was unforgettable then I have done what I needed to do…….A simple hug can mean so much more then just an embrace between two bodies.  Today, mine was meant to allow my soul the chance to greet yours….our souls will forever be friends.’   KelseyKelsey

I believe you meet people for a reason.  Their age means nothing.  You connect for many different reasons on many different levels.  Each one should be embraced.  This friendship has changed not only my life, but my family’s life.  There is a circle of friendship here that was meant to be. I am forever grateful for this old soul in joining my family.

.Tracy

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