If you know me well you know how carefree, flirty and friendly I am naturally. I don’t have to try hard at that part of my personality because I believe it’s just who I am. I have a deep serious side lurking in the darkness waiting to tackle the flirty chic who continues to have way too much fun! TACKLE ME FOR GOD SAKES! I have always found it hard to balance my flirty nature with my serious side. Does anyone else relate? Someone? Anyone?
I struggle at times to find the balance between being serious and flirty, being wayyyy to comfortable with my sexuality doesn’t help. I dislike women who manipulate men with their sexuality, I don’t believe I do. I will however admit I use it, but for no specific reason or outcome just because I love the flirty sparing of words with male energy. It can however get me into a pickle if someone doesn’t know me! I joke about having Elastic Boundaries…s-t-r-e-t-c-h! What’s a line for if not to cross?…which is fine but not when that side of my personality is predominately focused on. I am working on finding that balance right now…it’s a struggle let me tell you!
I’ve recently been told I have walls I need to take down…ya I know me? Walls? I do! I keep them up to protect my heart. It’s easier to joke and flirt than it is to fail or be rejected. I’ve taken some time lately to make some changes in my life and I am working towards being my true authentic self once again.
What I am seeking has not matched the vibration that I have been emulating. I have finally recognized a pattern that keeps appearing in front of me. A lesson if you will that I keep repeating and not quite getting!
“If you are being swept into some current that is not comfortable, or not in harmony with your desire, you must remember that couldn’t happen if you weren’t offering a vibration that matched it in some way. If you’re vibrating differently from that, you’re not having that experience”~ Abraham
“Offer a vibration that matches your desire rather than offering a vibration that keeps matching what-is.”~ Abraham
So I guess to sum what I am really trying to put out in the Universe is that deep down I know what I want in life and how I want to be viewed and for a brief time I’ve swerved off course. I was still authentic and viewed correctly but it was not a balanced collection of who I am deep down. I allowed myself to put out a vibration that was what I wanted in the moment but not in the big picture. Now it really depends on whether or not I’m looking at the big picture or the moment right here and now. Both are good! I am learning to balance each moment connecting the dots that will eventually lead me right into the centre of the big picture!
Sometimes you must walk down a path to determine what you don’t want, to identify what you do want. Life works in mysterious ways, showing us clues along the way if we are aware enough to pay attention to them!
Maybe I can just be happy with being a serious flirt…for now! Problem solved…movin on! *wink!