Expose Yourself

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625565_10151296502307032_1928783634_nBonnie exposed herself last week…don’t rush and click the link to see a naked picture of her, I mean emotionally.

Women tend to share their fears and insecurities with other women, which takes courage and confidence. You take the chance of being judged. Occasionally we meet a man with whom we feel this comfort and we have the best of both worlds. Men on the other hand don’t share quite as easily with their mates as the female energy does. Men are brought up to be manly which unfortunately in society eyes doesn’t always include the expression of emotions. I want a man who can chop wood AND express his thoughts, desires, love, dreams, fears and insecurities <—–to be clear that is not my whole list of what I want my man to be 😉 There is nothing more liberating than being with someone you can say anything to regardless of how intimate or wildly crazy it may seem. When we feel safe, we share. When we share we build trust. Without trust we have nothing.

True raw emotions I believe should be shared. I am guilty of being too much of an open book at times, so balance is important. I am working on keeping my inner feelings to myself a tad longer, just in case they are hormone based shooting out of left field without any prior notice what-so-ever. It’s a struggle let me tell you! I wouldn’t be in some of the predicaments I find myself in if I kept my trap shut a little longer! Live and learn.

However…Our truth is who we are, like it or leave it. When we cease to share who we are, we stand still. It’s super safe…but a bit boring! We miss out on intimacy and moments that will allow us to grow with or without a partner. When we take a chance, the reward can be simply delicious! This is where balance comes in. Keeping a little bit of yourself for a rainy day kinda logic by balancing our truth and living in the moment pure and raw. It doesn’t matter how honest you want to be, sometimes it’s best to keep that thought close to your heart, even for a nanosecond longer before diving face first for that muddy landslide of fun and adventure. <~~~ You have to admit that sounds wayyyyy better than being in the safety zone! So Captain Careful (that’s me) suggests wearing safety goggles before you dive? Excuse me while I go shower off the mud on my face!

When I was in my twenties I wasn’t able to communicate well (go figure!) out of fear of being judged or left for that matter, so I didn’t say much of anything. Sadly in the end the relationship ended because I didn’t communicate, so holding back my words gave me the same result. Fear and insecurities come from a place when we are learning about life and who we are. They sit stagnant within our DNA waiting for a opportunity to expose themselves if we let them. I have worked hard on learning how to communicate well but every now and then I fear being judged and left and I raise my walls and stop communicating to avoid the inevitable! When you search back to the root or beginning of a fear we are able to face those fears and move on from them. “Fear is the Thief of Dreams” ~ Mahatma Gandhi

We all have insecurities and fears as Bonnie mentioned hers being the importance of what people think of her. Valid insecurity, we all want to be liked as human beings. We strive to be accepted and loved. Life is meant to be shared and no one wants to be left alone in life to fend for themselves forever! forever…forever…forever…forever.

I am in the process of facing a few fears of my own. What I have learned in the process is this…I am a survivor, I am able to take care of myself and family all by myself…if need be! I know I don’t have to, if I would just learn to use my words and ask for help when I need it. I am strong, independent, self sufficient and I can do it alone but I am far from alone! I have a huge circle of male and female energy that if I reached out to, would be there with strength and a smile willing to help me.

Sooooo, judge me not unless you have walked in my shoes. Leave me if you choose. I will stand amongst my circle of true companions and live my life in the moment the best way I know how! Knowing I can survive on your own is empowering, admitting I don’t want to is my truth.

Svaha ~

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Adventure Awaits…Romance not Included!

“Grab adventure with both hands and don’t let go”…is what a close male friend of mine said to me last year, who lives each day immersed in adventure. He is the epitome of adventure to me. He has inspired me on many occasions to live my life right NOW. He sees life as one adventure after another, jumping in with both feet each time. I always add, “Now mix a little romance to that and I’m in!” He see’s adventure as purely a life experience making a memory with no intention of looking for, or adding romance. Pure and simple adventure. How sweet is that!

I’m certain if romance were to somehow appear in one of his adventures he would indeed grab it with both hands and not let go! I admire him for living in the moment. He has taught me that I think too much. I want to jump in with both feet at times but…I think too much. I think what-if…?He replies “What could go wrong?” I am Captain Careful and I approach life cautiously most of the time. I justify my cautious nature with ‘I live a completely different life than he does, being a Mother of two with different responsibilities, adventure sometimes seems far away!’. He on the other hand is child-less (as far as we know) and embraces his freedom which allows him to seek adventure wherever the wind blows him…and it blows him! I have to admit I envy that at times, but wouldn’t change my life for anything! 

I am not a ‘grass is greener on the other side’ kind of person but sometimes there is definitely different types of grass that you could benefit from exploring now and then, just over there! As long as it’s explored with an open mind and honest approach. I want to feel that grass between my toes! I want to lie face down in it and smell it’s sweet aroma after it’s just been trimmed. 

We all get caught up in the routine of life, working and doing chores, kids, family and feel the lack adventure in our life. I find myself drawn to those who seek adventure, with a curious nature. It’s easy to get caught up in their excitement and lust for it.

I think I have figured out what part of my problem was in the past whilst trying to seek adventure. I limited myself to it being of the romantic variety. If romance was involved I took the leap of faith each time…blind folded! I jumped into romantic adventure with both feet hands and any other body part that wanted to tag along and go for the ride. Romantic adventure should be embraced for what it is, or what it is not, with the same frame of mind we have while seeking any other kind of adventure, no expectation! I am learning to separate the two. That may seem like a no-brain-er to all of you but if you are a Aquarian Hopeless Romantic you will understand the desire to be immersed in romance and adventure at the same time, seems like the natural combination.

So I have come to the conclusion that adventure should be sought after with a free and clear mind with no expectation or even the remote thought of it including romance. I will jump into adventure that presents itself with an open mind free of any thought that romance needs to somehow be included. I will explore romantic adventure with a little more caution but still with both feet hands and those body parts that yearn for it. (Bonnie, no comments!)

Adventure Awaits us all if we approach it with the right frame of mind and attitude, free of any expectation of what it should include.

Adventure Awaits…bring your mind body and soul…romance not included!