You don’t have to feel like your life is a fabrication anymore. You don’t have to live in fear of being found out. It’s done. It’s out there. I know you’re embarrassed and I know you feel ashamed. Those feelings will pass and in their place you will feel the lightness of relief. Heavy made-up-excuses will start to fall away. You don’t need them anymore.
Let the lies go. They’ve become such a habit it’s hard to discern which is real and which is made up. I won’t ask how you got to this point. Details don’t really matter. I won’t ask you the why’s, where’s and when’s. None of it matters as much as right now. Right now matters. From this moment on, face to face, all masks off, no more lies clouding the space between us.
I know it’s hard to remember who you really are. Life pushes and tugs at us. Life swirls us around kicking up dirt so it’s hard to see clearly at times. We gradually lose our grip on the innocent joy we once embodied. But it hasn’t disappeared, it’s still in you. It still is you.
You may find this hard to believe right now, but you hold so much power. You can move mountains and make it all good again. I would never say it if it were not true. I believe it with every fibre of my being. You can be all that you dream you can be. So why not choose a wonderful dream for yourself; a magnificent, full of happiness, envy of all around you, kind of dream. You’ve tried the nightmare, now go for the opposite.
I’ll be here. I know who you really are. I will be the one smiling knowingly when everyone else is wondering how you got to be so lucky. I’ll know your secret.
All you have to do is dream it.